Elastic heart (탄력있는 심장)

I feel that power is unleashed in me

A power that makes me scream from the depths of despair

A consuming emotion makes me do the right thing

It makes me look back at the one who made me lose my trust

At the one who knocked me to the ground and made me feel like  I not   exist and not breathe

At the one who played with my heart countless times and then held me captive like I was meant to be his forever

At the one who lied to me nonchalantly and treated me like a easy woman

To whom I gave all the love and sincerity that he threw on the floor so easily without he noticing how much I wither away

The one to whom I revealed all my secrets and my past without realizing that it would all backfire on me

The one to whom I revealed all my secrets and my past without I will  realizing that it would all backfire on me

He made me trust him so much, to show my feelings and passion for him

Even if he made me feel useless and hurt many times, I tried to understand him

Even though there were days when he wouldn't say a word or even look at me i still overlooked it thinking he was  is going through a bad time and wants to be alone

Even though my words sometimes received sharp retorts, I didn't give them importance even though I still felt like my heart was broken and bleeding because of his coldnes

I always thought that I was the problem, that the relationship not working because of my decisions

I've always thought that I'm the one who has weak love and can't offer more

I had lived with the illusion that I am not suitable to make him happy, that I have nothing special

I blamed myself for all the problems that arose, for love insufficiency, because I wasn't trying hard enough to make everything the way he wished

But I was far from having a  durable and free of misunderstandings relationship like in the stories

I worked hard for our relationship to flourish, I sacrificed my time, patience and peace of mind

I wanted to win this fight without weapons, to make him change, he to see that he was wrong

But he continued to do harm and more harm harm to the point of making me cut him remove of my life.

Arrow the wherewith he pierced my heart was too sharp

His repulsive words, spoken without any remorse, reached until the depths of my mind

His venom reached to the last vein,to the last drop of blood

I finally realized that I would not have had a free and peaceful life if I had continued to believe that this relationship was meaningful

So late I realized that there was no beam of brilliance around me

So late I realized I wasn't getting the love and protection which  I wished it so much

I thought we could be two as one

But it seems that the love of one of us gave in and that was your

The day has come when one of us will have to leave and close the door behind he and that one are even you

The day has arrived when you will have to say goodbye to the memories with me because it will not repeat themselves

It's too late to apologize, that chance has long passed

You were too busy destroying all my hopes

I wanted more facts not words, I wanted you to have clear feelings for me

Your mind was somewhere else, you looked at another sunrise

There will be nothing between us not even now, not even in another lifetime

The whispers of the past have flown like burnt petals

My tears stopped more flowing

Even if I didn't fight for my freedom, I will from now on

I really didn't let my heart shouts out loud , I will let it from now on

Even if I judged me too harshly, I will learn to love myself more from now on

Even if I didn't get respect I will continue to show kindness to those who deserve

Not all men are like you, remember

You are on the list of those who have not matured and who do not know what an is " reliable man"

You have proven how capable you are of giving love to a woman

I want to forget you, get up and continue looking for my fit half

I gave you enough chances, you didn't want to headed

I hope you will have time in this life to reprimand yourself for the pain you have caused others especially me

And I hope you have realized that I do have an elastic heart

Yeah, I have an elastic heart

An elastic heart that won't show the world how much it falls apart when  burn from the inside

An elastic heart that will make me fall and get up a thousand and one times

I have an elastic heart, I didn't collapse

I didn't fall when you continued to hit me without you caring

I will not fall even from now on because I have an elastic heart

A heart in which only myrrh-scented petals will always spring

I will not close my eyes, I will continue to walk through the fire to survive, to face all evil

I know I will survive if I will stand to the light

No, you hasn't destroyed me, I still have a glimmer of hope that shine in my happy eyes like the rainbow

Because I have an elastic heart and it will stay that way

I have an elastic heart

Irina Catalina gio 🦄🦄🙂 (이리나 카탈리나 지오)