Fallin'

Fall, I keep falling

There is no one to hold my hand and convince me not to fall

Sometimes I feel so loved in your arms

Other times I feel used, I feel like I live under a gray sky

You told me "i love you so much baby" and i believed

You make me feel so confused, as if it's like I'm only today starting to know you

I have never loved anyone but you

Maybe you believe what I'm telling you or no, I don't care

Maybe you think I'm telling you fantasies, that illusions are spinning in my mind

But I think you are the most dreamy and immature

Oh ,and when I think you become my obsession, my totem

You were my sun, my lavender, my perfect lunar eclipse

And yet I put my hopes in the wrong person

Your defective character it  began  to show

The lie began to be seen in your eyes which were once so pure

The fine syrup of love it overflowed on the floor

I feel like my feelings for you are falling apart

I feel my body start to get cold and my hands vibrate with rage

I have never doubted your trust and love until now

And yet now I feel that I have made the biggest mistake of my life, an inevitable failure

You pressed me the most sensitive buttons

You liked it when you were master of my body

You liked it to the fullest, you savored every moment

Your impertinence has reached its peak

I let you kiss me, even though I knew you were thinking of another

I know there is a" she" and not a me

You hid this from me even though it seemed obvious

My heart  is not what was before,she is wounded, torn to pieces

My heart turned to a tear of bitterness,I don't know how to put out the flame that started destroying me

My heart beats when it burns, I can't stop the revolution that started all over my body

You told me," baby come to make love to me "

You asked me sarcastically "baby, why are you so cold with me"

"Baby, baby, you don't hear what I'm telling you"

You seemed so frustrated and wrinkled

In an instant the smile on your lips disappeared, you were white as lime

You looked like the dumbest guy in the whole universe

You looked sideways at me and then you started approaching me

You slowly put your hand to my mouth ,and then tighter of to arm

I feel your idiot compassion that makes me explode

I feel like my heart is pounding and my head is starting to hurt

I tried to get out of the grip but couldn't

You collect  me so hard against my thin body that I start to shed tears

I felt your sharp breath flash from head to my feet

Cold drops of sweat began to run down my face

I wanted so badly to get out of the unbearable grip and then scream

I felt like in the most infernal prison, I felt like lie was laughing in my face

I was like a lamb in the wolf's claws,My love was hunted and then thrown away

How you held tight it seemed to me to last an eternity, I felt that all my muscles ache, that I had bruises

I could feel my bones broken under the force of the grip

I was so helpless in front of this rock of stone

Suddenly I began to hear a piercing voice,his voice was so cold

You whispered all sorts of stupid things about how you like to see my tears running down my face

About how you enjoyed playing with my feelings

About your diabolically plan to make me fall in love with you

After telling me all the miseries you kissed me with a horrible smile on his face, after which you let me go and you left

I was shocked and on the other hand destroyed on the inside

It was the most humiliating moment always

I haven't seen him since

I forgot him as fast as I knew him

There is no doubt, I have now decided

I will not suffer a second time for the same ugly story

I gathered my sufferings and threw them away

Everything that was ugly is gone, now it's just me

Too many promises and no truth

He made so many beautiful promises to me but they turned out to be just empty words

I knew that our relationship has been compromised for a long time but I lived with the hope that in time everything will be better

Everything has an end and this story has gone to the bottom of the water

Irina Catalina_gio(이리나 카탈리나 지오)🦄🦄