Fake love (거짓된 사랑)

I tried to be happy even when I was sad

I tried to be strong in front of you even when I felt weak

I tried to tell untruths even if it hurt

I did what you asked that even  if it cost me

I have shown you many times the proof that I love you

You told me to change my lifestyle, I did

You told me that there is no point I'm having friends, so I away they

I walking so far as to I ended up changing clothes and furniture and my workplace,I reduced and the time I was giving to my passion

And this only for you,so that I don't see you sad

I tried to offer you the best, me ofrecí a ti

I tried not to ask too much many, on the contrary I tried to fight alone with my weaknesses

I thought love only worked one single mode

But in fact it is not like that, love can be selfish, evil and predatory

You choose to love in this way, you only thought of yourself

And what about my thirst for affection?

You forgot that you are no longer alone and that you have someone by your side to protect?

You forgot that in a relationship love should not only be offered by one partner but also by the other

Have you forgotten not just one has to sacrifice himself and tell the truth?

Don't you know that love isn't all about promises and secrets revealed?

It's not means  just a bouquet of flowers and a 5-star night

It means feelings, understanding, self-knowledge

But you have no way of understanding

I pretended I am to be blind, I didn't dare to reproach you for anything because I had a deep respect for you

I continued to offer you my love hoping that it would convince you to become passionate about me again just like in the beginning

But after two weeks you don't even notice anymore that someone was waiting for you at home at the window

You didn't even sit at the table with me anymore because I always found vouchers with the menu you were eating  at the restaurant on the corner of the street  discardeds in the trash

You didn't  like it anymore the coffee which  I was doing for you and every morning I was waking up without you by

And on the bedside table the ticket that I still keep it in my diary:" I'll be gone all day and don't try to call me because I'm busy"

"Don't worry when I come back you'll tell me everything you have to say"

And that's what you was always ended your apologies with, and I was remaining my eyes in the sun

I started to hate the frequent moments when you were absent and to I reassure ,I always smelled your T-shirt which, however, one day also had the aroma of a woman's perfume which was not mine

I told myself that maybe my senses are playing tricks on me, that there is no way you could do this to me

You to date a other women while I try to get rid of old habits to which you  didn't agree with never

To I become a utterly and utterly different person? And what about our suitcase of memories?

To I understand that what it was between us it was insignificant nothing seriously for you?

To I understand that you did not feel when I tried to manifest you my admiration and gratitude?

Wasn't I clear enough when I told you that I don't want someone else to take my place in your heart?

And I have not expressed to you enough the desire that I want us to remain as we met?

But still it seems that in life no matter how well it would work  a relationship it won't last long and unwanted complications will appear

And love can leave you emptier than you felt before you felt it

And when I think how good I used to feel with you, but now my best days turned into dark days which I did not want was to be a part of

But unfortunately the gray clouds covered all my starry sky

And unfortunately the love I was beginning to blossom next to decided that I was no longer suitable to offer him the light he needed

That I will no longer be the one with whom he will continue his journey to true fulfillment

That I will no longer be the one with whom he will dance the waltz at midnight

That I will no longer be the one who will motivate him then when all the achievements will become a water and un earth

I agree with this,although I feel, how the weight of the situation pressing down on me and crushing my heart like on a canned

Than a love from which you can gain nothing good better a life that you live on your own account with your own rules

You are not an example for me, I will find out the secrets a perfect harmony myself to become an anti-example

And to show others that a principled woman well founded ,cannot be trampled by without conduct man

I will show you that I can live without a vehemence love

I will show you that a woman who has been hurt once can be become above anything without anyone's help

Even though it hurts me the way you cheated on me and you broke  promises

Even if it hurts me when I remember that the two of us were making plans for the future and suddenly you brought  in front of me your future official partner

And even if it hurts me that that love you chose was  is in fact my old childhood friend

And even though I felt offended when you  put to at  her neck,  my silver medallion with a sentimental value that you asked me for as a present for your birthday

And even if I felt like with  a part of me went faded when you showed him the engagement ring

Even if I felt that the ceiling was about to give  on me

Even though I saw what betrayal really means

Even though I really felt what it means to be used and then to be left puddle with your emotions trampled on

It's my fault for believing in a manipulative and murderous love

Why this fake love is so unbearable, incomplete and irrelevant?

Why is this false love so are noxious from defenseless lacking people ?

Why does this false love darken the souls of so many people?

It took roots in me a flower that which unfortunately could not loosen its petals

A came to life in me a butterfly that could not did it his take flight

Why does this ugly and petty love have to screw you up?

Why a man's soul can be devoid of generosity and nobility?

But anyway i know that a true love will reach  peak one day and show its true greatness

And I know that fake love will not be able to make everyone unhappy

Irina Catalina gio(이리나 카탈리나 지오)🌈🦄