Feelings fade (감정이 퇴색하다)

Feelings fade when the people I once valued change

Yet despite the changes, I remained the same as before

I am the same as when I first made my wish looking at the blue sky

Like when I first started to give attention and love to those around me

Like when I first got rid of the feeling that I was a humble and cold person

I remained the same, with the same aspirations, dreaming of a better world

Dreaming of things that others wouldn't even think of

To things that I can't explain but that I know are out of patterns

I dreamed in the past, I dream now and I will do the same in the future

I wish oh, sometimes I think I wish the impossible

What made me of unwavering in the face of problems and decisions?

What made me so uncaring in front of people who claim to be just like and me?

The answer is simple and only my heart a knows it : the lie and the fake smile

These can be observed even by the one  which it is head in the clouds

Even the unsentimental can feel the power of falsehood and hatred

It's so easy to look a person in the eye and realize they're not what you think they are on the outside

It's so easy to feel the indifference and arrogance of some when they look at you like you're the last oddity  which appeared the galaxy of fads

You are rejected, considered crazy, parallel and incoherent with the new age of falsehood

A world where you are steal on face  your face by those who really appreciated you once but which are now your enemies

A world full of untruths and people trying to destroy the last group of "obsolete" people

Now I can only hope that I will  survive that  this  global catastrophe

I cannot live with the belief that I will find people willing to support my opinion related to all reality

I cannot hope with all my heart that I will have some irreplaceable friends by my side

It is too impossible at the moment to hope for something that I hoped for in the past

People change like the weather, today they can flatter you, tomorrow they can insult you

Today I can consider you a good friend, tomorrow the greatest traitor and antipathetic

Fake friends are just a hindrance and a waste of time

And fake love only makes you waste your life unnecessarily

It makes no sense to waste your time and patience on trifles and yet they are unforeseen

These trifles can be people who want to make your life a nightmare

People who  want  to  screw up the desires you've been  crave to  for so many years

Stowaways who crave your happiness and success

Oh ,and it's so hard to believe that these people will change, that one day they will enjoy your successes

That they will approach you and support you without  having interests

It's so hard to believe that you will fully heal from the last wounds inflicted on you by gullible people

It's a feeling that makes you more vulnerable to profiteers

Even if you feelings and love remained the same as always, others planted thorns and arrows in their hearts

It is not easy for everyone to give love and   others with equal opportunities

This is humanity: smiles, hugs, looks, words, stories, friends, love,all fake

We are tired of looking at this mess, we feel something so real, sad

Feelings fade when people change

Irina Catalina gio🦄☺️(이리나 카탈리나 지오)