Sugar (설탕)

Oh, so much far we've drifted apart

So much you made my heart cry, I know you liked me sometime

But it seems that that burning and passionate love has perished or maybe it has turned to someone else?

Only you know who you promised your fake love to, and I don't want to hear any sad but fake excuses from you

The time has I come to break the chain that bound us

The time has come to destroy that precipitated connection that destroys all my morale

Maybe you didn't understand but I can't keep you in my heart anymore, no use to me at anything

If you're not hiding anything then look me in the eye and tell me I are not your half

Why are you hiding and making excuses?

Why do you always choose the easiest solution when there is a serious problem?

I'm sorry that I fell victim to a fanatical who only knows how to throw mud

I'm sorry that I let happiness pass me by only to live abnormally, devoid of love

I regret when I thought that the love of a boy could save me from days of crying and stress

I regret that I foolishly believed in a love without a happy ending

I regret the way you ended up, obsessed with money, fame and lacking in charisma

I don't deserve such love turned into obsession

I don't know why but now you make me feel confused

Your gaze is no longer directed towards me, you do not show me any sign of admiration

I see how you run after riches that are of no use to you

Do you think that gold or diamonds do as much as a woman's sincere love and sacrifice?

You think it's all sums up on a bouquet of flowers and a forced kiss?

You think you can have love when you want without risk?

And you also think that a real woman will put up with your cheekiness and expired conditions custom-made?

Women have to waste their happiness on a man with sick desires?

Woman must always take the blame on themselves and endure being spat on and splashed with mud?

Is that what you think? That only men can be insufferables, incomprehensible and of unyielding?

That only men it is destineds everything, that they can play as they want with a woman's love?

And who says it's good for a man to resort to dirty deeds to keep a woman don't like him close to him by force?

And who says it's normal for a man to enjoy his partner's suffering and nonchalantly tell her to disappear?

And even if it were so, why should the woman be the one with the biggest fault?

It's not right, you yourself said this once and now you deny and apologize that these are words these non-valid in our relationship?

Why are you trying to get everything in your favor?

Why don't you accept the fact that you have changed?

And it doesn't matter who did this, it's sad that you created a sad story for me

That you tried to change me too but without success

I can't stand this, the fact that you're trying to make me keep you around me

The fact that you're trying to make me understand that I'm the one who's wrong

The fact that you call me sugar but actually is another which makes you feel relaxed

And I still remember how we lied to each other, how we argued and reconciled

But the time has it come  go we separate ways

Let's forget our story and start over

There is nothing to return me back

Which to bring me into your arms, no a gesture or promise

There is no point in continuing if we are not happy

I can't love someone who doesn't have deep feelings for me

I can't love someone who can't hold my hand when I'm about to fall

I can't love someone who makes me feel small when i think i'm big

Which makes me feel weak when I think I'm strong

Which  makes me feel useless when I think I can make someone happy

I can't love someone who keeps me stuck with mind  in the past and who  makes me suffer  when  I don't want to

There is no point in talking about it now that the fact was  consummated

In vain you look for reasons and chances of reconciliation

For nothing you say that you will change and that you will not neglect me anymore

My trust in you has been long gone since you started acting strange

I am too indifferent now to care why yourself conscience rebuke

It's no use yelling and saying you're sorry, it doesn't compense my pain with anything

Don't insist, don't ask me when my heart last beat for you

It doesn't make sense you to say you know what I want after you turned my love to ashes

And here it is not about morality but untruth

I look at you as a stranger, you are nothing more special than the others in the crowd

My heart stopped loving you long ago

Just as time does not wait, neither do I have the patience for you to change

You don't deserve to be part of my life, I gave you many chances but you chose to waste them

You will not change, and you will never truly realize that what you have done cannot be forgiven

You don't know how much I loved you, I compromised my feelings for you

I dedicated all the time I had to you, but you never had time for me

This is what a woman wants first of all: time and then love

This is what a woman wants, love makes her happy not gold or diamonds

And secondly, love is the only thing in a relationship that cannot be bought

But you can't understand as long as you think wealth is what makes a man to be wanted

Just one more thing I would like you to know: a repulsive man will never receive love and will never be able to feel love the way as one who knows how to give and receiver love

A real man does not humiliate a woman, and does not condemn her

But you have done this many times and I cannot tolerate it, no matter how good I try to be

You brought me to the brink of agony and then you started to feed on my sadness

Why you to enjoy the sun and I'm content to live in the dark?

Don't you think you deserve to feel on your own skin what I felt when you left me with the mortgaged soul?

Your love was not free of charge but mine why should it be?

Why should I reserve my love for a man with two girls who knows how to destroy everything what I have more beautiful ?

As love can offers , that's how and too can take everything gave

No, you are not what you once were and you will not be again

I am sad that you have become so despicable with immoral hopes

Don't expect anyone else to let you do what you did to me

The art of manipulation is not a legal solution to reach a desired path

And yes, the words you said to me "you are the sugar that sweetens my life"

"You are the voice that delights my hearing"

"You are the person I would always want to wake up next to"

"You are the sun that brightens my day"

These are just some of the impertinent aberrations you told me when you were thinking of another

I can only say that for my peace of mind it is better to get rid of such a toxic and contagious love

And so that my hatred does not deepen, it is better to you leave without saying goodbye

The only beautiful memory remains the album photo in my room in which  we savure our favorite coffee and painted the flower we wanted to represent us

But a love without a guarantee does not last longer than a summer rain

Irina Catalina gio(이리나 카탈리나 지오)🌈🤗